Monday, October 28, 2002
The weekend is officially over.
Only when Paul comes to visit does the weekend fly by so incredibly fast. I mean, he got here last Wed. night and before I even had a chance to fully enjoy him, he was packing his shit to leave. Once he walked out the door, I felt as though I had been punched in the gut. My happy little world came crashing down on my broken little heart.
:(
This weekend was by far one of the best weekends we have ever had together. The only time we even SORT OF fought was on Thursday night when we were hanging out with Rita. Even that was over within minutes. During the rest of the time, we were a team. We were laughing and hugging and sitting in eachother's laps at every possible moment. I didn't want to spend one second away from him. I felt happier than I have in a long time. Comfortable and happy.
Man, having him leave fucking SUCKS!!!!!!
Friday night we went out to dinner. Saturday night we went to Mariah's show and it was BOMB! She was absolutely phenomenal. Her voice is like something from out of this world. After the show, Paul and I went to this incredibly expensive hotel for drinks. We hung with Mariah's family and friends from Boston and Albany. I met so many people and really had the time of my life. So many of the people there wanted to meet me and get to know me. I felt like I was actually SHMOOZING for the first time in two years.
I miss those days alot. I felt like I was a part of the Oswego Theater department again. :-D
I had shots bought for me. I had drinks handed to me one after another. I got hit on by one of Mariah's sisters' friends. THAT was hysterical. Man. It's hard to capture it all in here without going on and on...
It was a night I will never forget.
Paul and I went up to Mariah's hotel room at like 2:30am and smoked some bowls. I got WASTED and forced myself to puke in the bathroom. That was a definite highlight. Mariah has this friend Joanna, who I think is just about the tops! I spent at least 2 hours talking to only her at the end of the night. Sometimes you meet people who are so in tune with you, it's like destiny. Joanna will fit in WONDERFULLY with my friends. I am glad to have her on board.
Mariah made me immensely proud on Saturday night. I still get choked up thinking about it.
Or maybe I am just choked up cuz I miss Paul so deeply.
I don't know what it is. He has visited so many times before and I have never felt this deeply affected by the separation.
He is having a hard time finding a decent apartment in the city. I am nervous that it won't work out by 12/1. I NEED him here now.
For my sanity and our happiness.
I have never loved or been loved this hard by anyone in my entire life.
This kid is it.
Only when Paul comes to visit does the weekend fly by so incredibly fast. I mean, he got here last Wed. night and before I even had a chance to fully enjoy him, he was packing his shit to leave. Once he walked out the door, I felt as though I had been punched in the gut. My happy little world came crashing down on my broken little heart.
:(
This weekend was by far one of the best weekends we have ever had together. The only time we even SORT OF fought was on Thursday night when we were hanging out with Rita. Even that was over within minutes. During the rest of the time, we were a team. We were laughing and hugging and sitting in eachother's laps at every possible moment. I didn't want to spend one second away from him. I felt happier than I have in a long time. Comfortable and happy.
Man, having him leave fucking SUCKS!!!!!!
Friday night we went out to dinner. Saturday night we went to Mariah's show and it was BOMB! She was absolutely phenomenal. Her voice is like something from out of this world. After the show, Paul and I went to this incredibly expensive hotel for drinks. We hung with Mariah's family and friends from Boston and Albany. I met so many people and really had the time of my life. So many of the people there wanted to meet me and get to know me. I felt like I was actually SHMOOZING for the first time in two years.
I miss those days alot. I felt like I was a part of the Oswego Theater department again. :-D
I had shots bought for me. I had drinks handed to me one after another. I got hit on by one of Mariah's sisters' friends. THAT was hysterical. Man. It's hard to capture it all in here without going on and on...
It was a night I will never forget.
Paul and I went up to Mariah's hotel room at like 2:30am and smoked some bowls. I got WASTED and forced myself to puke in the bathroom. That was a definite highlight. Mariah has this friend Joanna, who I think is just about the tops! I spent at least 2 hours talking to only her at the end of the night. Sometimes you meet people who are so in tune with you, it's like destiny. Joanna will fit in WONDERFULLY with my friends. I am glad to have her on board.
Mariah made me immensely proud on Saturday night. I still get choked up thinking about it.
Or maybe I am just choked up cuz I miss Paul so deeply.
I don't know what it is. He has visited so many times before and I have never felt this deeply affected by the separation.
He is having a hard time finding a decent apartment in the city. I am nervous that it won't work out by 12/1. I NEED him here now.
For my sanity and our happiness.
I have never loved or been loved this hard by anyone in my entire life.
This kid is it.
